Th' transitions within ♥

All along, I've been the suspect of my own.

2007-12-31T16:22:00.000+08:00

Last Day of our dear Year 2007.
Can't bear for it to leave, all th' ups&downs.
But I hope 2008 is a better year, (tho I seriously don' want it to come:/)
With all the (good) stress coming & all [:

Oh sweet. My room's super tidy now,
I want everything new? Hmms perhaps will try to reformat this laptop.
&others too, I don't want to live my life backwards.
Will be thinking of my New Year's Resolution(s) later on.

This is the last post for this blog :D

~~(Sighs, there's tears while I'm typing all these.~~

~~as if i'm really leaving this world like that :/)~~

whatever it is, i'm really gonna make full use of today.(:

In time for party.

2007-12-30T21:35:00.000+08:00

Mood : Emotion-less.

Taken loads of pics' but I find all of it so random.
As in, some normal pics' you could take yourself, nothing special at all.
I promise I'll snap something real interesting next time :D
In my new blog, new blogskin, new url.
I'll be using 'littlenotesof-life' btw, as there's more than 5votes on that(:
& I so loveeeee my new blogskin, tho' I've asked peoples to compare it with my current skin, & they said my current skin's so much better. (Whywhywhy! D:)
N'mind, as long as I like it♥

Photography's not just a passion, is a hobby that stays there forever. [:
& I'm gonna buy a new camera soon, (tho' I don't know anything bout it).
Then I'll bring it around to where ever I'm going. [x
I know I sounds weird, talking about all these adult-ies:/

Oh one thing,
I'm sososo uber dissappointed D:
Of what?
--
Unable to go for the Countdown tomorrow.
Not allowed to go for the Bbq tomorrow (too).
Oh why oh why T.T

~~I want cry already -.-~~
~~[ Cramps, slight fever, gastric + ulcers ]~~

Expect the unexpected, &a wannabe.

2007-12-30T15:23:00.000+08:00

Oh poor image quality :/

Hey, I think I can tell you that.
I actually know what's going on. Something's happening, major.
&Yet I'm not informed, oh-so-cool isn't it? Yes I'm mad, &I admit I didn't care about this event. (this superduper stupid event, to me.) But its still a setted rule, I have to be involved, right? But well, I could say that almost everyone in the team's hiding this from me. I may not be that typical girl you see everywhere, but that doesn't mean I can't know can I? No harm telling me, even if you don't, I just simply don't understand why I can't even ask a slightest bit of this information. I'm not an alien from other planet, Stupid -.-

I'm sick, &pissed.
(for a period.)

~~Go&die.~~

Going out.
Bye♥

Something's holding me back from reality.

2007-12-29T16:30:00.000+08:00

New blogskin on 1st January 2008♥
Perhaps a brand new url too(?) Suggestions please?
Don't worry, as it isn't that necessary to relink me [:

These are random urls I thought of :/

Whispersof-destiny♥
Littlenotesof-life♥
~~Th-taintedmemories♥~~ (Taken by Stead)
Oh-cryptical♥
Endlesstime-s♥

@ Blogspot.com
Kindly give me your suggestions if possible[:

Okay after the 'short-writeup' on the {insert url} problem.
Someone whose lovely name is 'screw your laobu' came to tag, unique name indeed.
Alright may not exactly be her or anyone related to her.
So I'm just filling up spaces right here :D
( Oh I so love that name luhs, but I love mine more♥ Winks*)

- If you assume I've got no life,
then don't you think you should be in hell by now being lifeless tagging a no life person? [:

Detached tone on the phone.

2007-12-28T23:45:00.000+08:00

How I longed for some real Happy Pills :/
{ Credits to Eshley for this pic' :D }

I didn't expect myself to post another entry for today.
But am friggin` bored. So yeah :D
Just tidied up my room not long ago, been perspiring like a piggie -.-
Thrown away a dozens of clothings & left with like .. a pill of a hill there. Neat :D

Have been informed that someone from {insert url} actually has the same layout as my currenly blogskin right now. Reasons why I don't want to actually 'insert her url' because after two of my tags she went MIA` in her blog. With a brand new tagboard too.
Or with other don't-know-what-reasons which I don't give a damn. [:
Maybe she's so in love with my Personal blogskin that she actually wanted hers to be exactly the same. (Ohoh I'm so proud of myself -.-! Ps.} I'm trying to be sarcastic. :/)
Oh, &you know what? Her profile actually says something like this : "This is my blog! Don't rip ! Anything please ask. " & Credits area : "Designer : Wanting :D Codings & Everything : Wanting :D" When fact is the source is exactly same as mine, with some slight changes.
Anyway. Thanks girl? For appreciating my blogskin yeah. [:
( I'll insert her url when she's back, No point going back there when you know the next thing she'll do is del tags, somemore her current MIA` layout isn't that obvious. Yeah. :/ )

--
Oh & one more thing;
http://www.petatv.com/tvpopup/video.asp?video=fur_farm&Player=wm
Somehow quite gross though' Or can I add in, it's totally cruel, horrible, cold-blooded.
How I wished those people would die off in a more terrible way than those innocent animals. &I shedded some tears just by watching 1/4 of the bar. :/ Stupid bloody humans, much more worst than animals alright? Oh poor little harmless creatures. D:
( Ps.} ~~Try/~~ don't buy any animals-made products, like ivory & furmade coat all these,
don't support the Fur Industry okay? Bloody humans. )

Out of reach.

2007-12-28T18:48:00.000+08:00

1. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
♥ Colin ahKor, surprised? :/

2. Are you missing someone real badly?
♥ Oh yes, sobs D:

3. Reason behind why you last cried?
♥ A few hours ago, well I can't tell you why.

4. If you had to choose between a million bucks
or to be able to change a major regret which would you choose?
♥ Money doesn't bring happiness, but that doesn't means mistakes are avoidable.

5. What’s on your mind right now?
♥ Hmm, someone perhaps, or rather .. (-.-)

6. What did you fear was going to get you at night as a child?
♥ Hello Kitties (for the time being). Cause I had my last nightmare on that. :/

7. How would you rather die? eating a milk chocolate. Or die Laughing!
♥ Laughing ! xD But can I pick both? (*Chokes*)

8. What would you spend a million dollars on?
♥ A land, sport cars & stuffs for perfection.

9. We are all human; do you think we judge someone for a past indiscretion?
♥ Nopes, shouldn't when you don't want to be judged.

10. Generally, in life, what makes you happy?
♥ Funny things [:

Ohyes, I sort of shortened the survey.

Supposed to be 50Questions, [:

This is a retake of my life.

2007-12-28T01:50:00.000+08:00

If you've noticed ;
You would have seen something strange in the 2nd & last photo.
- Toodles.

Closing the space, when it's time to surrender.

2007-12-27T23:54:00.000+08:00

Oh look I'm finally back :D
Yups, & I misses blogging you know :/
Bad news tho' I lost my photography skills` Those pictures I took sucks-a-whole-lot ]x
But I'll upload them up anyway as I don't want a ‘picture less entry'.

Something's not right, I just know it. I don't think you're aware of what is happening. But I could tell you that I do. & Looks like someone's been avoiding me for ages, nope not just someone actually. Two of you, don't you think its enough? :/ Fine, I know that I'm the cause of this, everything my fault. I'm to choose between two things, &I admit I'm selfish enough to pick both. I know something's wrong, but I don't know where it's wrong at really, tell me, what am I suppose to do? What I can say is, sorry.
Alright, read like you've read nothing at all. Bye♥

First Day♥:
Four full meals mainly for dinner. }
Ate alot, not because I'm hungry but because I'm a ~~glutton~~. I got car'sick-ed.
& Well, my emotions aren't really good when he drove us to the last meal. I just broke down, & cried in front of all of 'em -.- Okay, what a shame :/ Anyway, while walking across to the lanshop there, (there's this street where there's lots of erm, prostitutes?) & mens. Yup, there's this guy whom crazily grabbed my arm thinking I was one of them, & mom showed him her fists & middle finger o.o His friend apologized to us that he was drunk. So yeah, wtf -.- Anyway, the computers are RM2.50/hour, members are RM1.00, like everyone's playing Dota/Wargames etc & I'm the only one surfing the web. Dang & the connection sucks D: I appear to be dc-ing every single second. I asked the assistant for help & okay he appears to be a Malay boy & he doesn't know what is 'disconnect' & I don't know how to say it in Malay. Then, fedup -.- After that went for Prata & end of day. [:

Second Day♥:
Bad tempered. I admit I'm childish, sorry. }
Woke up in the car, & he drove us to his office for a rest & shower all that. Lucky the boss' not around, if not we'd have to spend another day stinking our nose out. Hmms, my phone bat' was 1/2 last night & suddenly boom no bat' this morning. Weird, wanted to take a pic` of the cute alley, but yeah so unlucky :/ Watched Tweety Bird & Tom&Jerry till the others are done. Out to 3Shopping Malls to walk around & I can't seem to find my shoe. (Oh-my-dear-shoe for New YearD:) Went to the Food court for dinner, my mood wasn't really good then, & I just screamed at them that I don't want to eat anything, & walked off :/ Super sorry, I don't know what's up to me really (..) After that went Jusco Mart to buy some tidbits to smugger in the theater. Watched Alien Vs Predator 2 (note that it's N18)' they sort of smuggered me in too -.- I rate the movie 4 out of 5stars. Been holding my Vitagen tightly throughout the whole movie, &halfway through I closed my eyes as it’s really too scary :/ & Then, after the movie I kept on thinking about monsters, But had nightmares on Hello Kitties tho' -.-

Last Day♥:
It's like my happiest day yet in a fussy mood. }
Okay this morning I asked mom how much she spent so far for this trip. She told me $xxx.
& My heartaches okay, cause that means my allowance would be cutoff lower again. Hmms :/ So like the whole day when she wanted to treat the others or something, I answered for them like "Nope I don't think they're hungry lahs, they just eaten very full last night right?" (I realized I've been so bad recently :/ & like, what's wrong with me? )
I forced Godbro to treat us, or rather, ~~beg~~. & he treated all of us Macdonald for like, $50. Cool. All upsized & mine's Grilled Chicken Foldover. [: Anyway, back home @ about 8pm plus & went to shop around at Central. The shoe I eyed-on before was out of stock, poor me D:
&Skips luh, I haven't bathed yet. (&its 1.30am right now.)

I'll wait for the day till I'm left with nothing.

2007-12-24T23:54:00.000+08:00

Hohoho, Merry Christmas♥
--

Will be off tomorrow evening.
Most probably will be back on 27th. [:
Bye♥

Time is short, the music won't last.

♥♥♥

You found me when no one else is looking.

X'mas, &when the clock structs midnight.

Moments after midnight.

You won't know what's beyond here.

2007-12-24T17:11:00.000+08:00

& I say its too late to apologize.

Scream-ed till throat dry for my mom to wake up.
Bathed prepared etc & hurried out of house, (like can't wait for reincarnation like that.)
Went UOB Bank, Forgotten to bring my Birth Cert` they don't accept photocopied one.
So went back home to take, on the way home saw Ex-Schoolmate & Senior, cool :/
Back there, the service's like dots (..)
(So rude, think ownself so big no need work there already luh. tmd -.-)
Hate the service, so up to DBS Bank, deposited those money & rushed to the Mrt.
On the way there, saw Chevy. Slim a-lot huhs [:

& Yeah, the pictures above are weird.
First are the fake window drawings outside Plaza Sing', (I don't know why I took that.) Followed by the baby whom keep stretching out her arms out wanting me to carry -.- ? The mom sort of, 'abadoned' her. (Lmaoxz) Nah her mom went to
buy Icecream :/ & I find that kind of rubbish bin interesting♥
Oh & those sculptures outside Plaza Sing' too, I'm like the only Singaporean whose taking pictures of it, others are tourists you know, with tourist hat. :/ Uhems*

So after that trained to Somerset, to find that particular guy.

He suppose to wait for us @ Lobby1 not 2.

& He called and we went to Lobby2 to find him but realised he headed back to Lobby1.

Then all went down to Lobby3, dots -.-

(Met him for some important things, shan't elaborate.)

Right after that, bought snacks & went home.

What a rushy day, as mom had to reach another event by 5pm.

Now, I'm craving for Pizza♥

Mix the words up.

2007-12-23T19:46:00.000+08:00

My sincere apology, (to myself ).
Planned to go out but was lazy to. :/ Postponed to tomorrow.
& I misses people(s). (With an (s) okay!)
Sobs, faster come back can T.T
--

Oh yeah, I suddenly craves for Chocolates! -
The thought of it is Yummy♥`
I decided not to do that Rainbow Skin already,
because I believe my current one's better. Nono, not ~~better.~~
Is more preferable & simplier than a complicated one. :D

Students will be available in 11days :
Sighs, even the word 'school' is frightening me. ]x Imagine .. waking up rise&shine in the morning instead of afternoons. Yawn like nobody's business while waiting for the dumbdumb bus(es). & Waiting for assembly to start. Yeah I admit, much better than rotting at home, but be it fun or not (to me), can't our dear Moe give us like uh (..) Just simply one more month of break? (I'm obviously spitting nonsense D:) As two months is already very long [:

--
Uhems, ignore what I say above. Just some lame thoughts [:
I can't believe it, starting of the holidays I'm like misses school so much.
& Wanting to toss off my holidaydreams, but now D:

Hmm cool, I'm gonna like it very soon. `
--

Mm hmms. Random post♥

& There's no turning back in life, at all.

Dreams, what I can say. Living life backwards.

Without future.

Don't let the roses wilt.

2007-12-23T12:03:00.000+08:00

I feel so dumb, really.
Weird thoughts, that is :/

I got the inspiration already, for my blog. [:
Feel like making a Colourful Rainbow Skin, '
but long time didn't insert any image; so I feel weird :[
Problem is :
Inspirations often comes to me when I'm getting busy -.-
Stupidstupid, shall see when I'm free uh. `
(Or shall stay to this skin.)
--

Will be going out later, finally :D
I swear to (...) ! So (...) [:
(Ahems, maybe will close down my blog when Sch-Reopens.)
Sheeeeeeeshxzxz.

Things will never change for you if you don't change.

2007-12-22T13:26:00.000+08:00

Your Life is 51% Perfect

Your life is pretty normal -
sometimes great, sometimes not so great.
You have a lot of good stuff going on. Your life may be more perfect than you realize.

How imperfect my life is D:

Bored-ing to death :/
Hopefully someone will (bring) me out lateron.
&I'm so in-love with my blogskin+blogsong. Suits the theme okay! :D
Loveloveloves --♥

--
Good luck mr.joker.
If you ever dare to forget me;
I'll haunt you for life [:

When hope fails, fate steps in.

2007-12-21T16:25:00.000+08:00

Sorry, no pictures this time :/
Till the next outing or whatever. Cause I'm sort of grounded.
But didn't revise much either, 1/2hour only D:

--
Whatever, the problem's settled. [:
& there's something that shocked me; last night & this afternoon :
My speaker suddenly switched songs to a radio program, talking cantonese -.- ?
& then another thing is my tagboard got a 'anonymous' saying 'hi wassups',
and when I login to my cbox account the message couldn't be found anywhere. Weird D:
Scare me, & then people thought I was joking, I'm not luh :/

Anyway, found this Personality Test from Yuinping's Blog.
& Did it out of boredom, as there's nothing much to blog.
Hope she don't mind [:

Is it that you are working - or even playing - too hard?
Because it would seem that you are experiencing a great deal of pent-up emotion at this time which could possibly take effect and lead to irrational behaviour.

You need an atmosphere of peace and quiet and you would like
to share a bond of understanding with the 'right person' - you have the belief
that with the right person, your stress and anxiety could be minimised.

The way things are, you feel that you are stuck in a rut and there is
not much you can do about it. You feel frustrated and inhibited but if you can
find a way to let yourself go, you may find that things aren't quite so bad as
perhaps you thought they were. One consolation is that since you are an
extremely emotional individual, with the right person you may be able to release
some of that frustration and tension with some mutual tender loving care.

Stresses resulting from a recent disappointment have led to considerable
trepidation. It would seem that there seems to be so much left undone.
Everything surrounds you with that air of uncertainty. You badly need to
feel a sense of security and whatever it takes to protect you against further
disappointment. At this particular time you doubt that things could be any
better in the future but you are sticking to your guns and refusing to take
advice from any source.

At this time you don't particularly like yourself. Everything that you have tried to do seems to have gone wrong. This makes you feel that there is no point in trying to start again. Apart from being stressed and tense, you are angry with yourself and have unadmitted self-contempt. Your refusal to admit that you and you alone is the basic cause of your problems leads to you adopting a headstrong and defiant attitude. If you take stock of yourself, smile a little and let go, everything will turn out okay. Have you not heard of the cliche 'smile and the world smiles with you - cry and you cry alone!'?

It's really true in some ways though.

Hmms .. `

I misses the way you used to be, but perhaps its all an illusion.

2007-12-20T16:31:00.000+08:00

Told you I'm bored :/

& Yes, I'm very relax.
Infact, I'm happy. Even happier than you are [:
But hey, don't you think you should thank me for everything you have now ?
Like woah, f l i r t t i l l l i k e t h a t. :/
よく、私はあなたと雌犬及び粗悪品をすることを何も持っていない。
私の便器で見つけられるたわごとのすべてにちょうど部分 (:
---

Well I'm actually okay with you one, } Shaoping.`
Cause you didn't offend me or anything, altho` you did to Amelia.`
N'mind, but my nick's referring to another bitch. Not you.
I wonder why're you acting so guilty when you didn't do anything? People not saying you, why so efficient & ask whether I'm scolding you or not ? Oh, & whenever you got trouble right, sure ask your so called cb sisters help de horh? For your infomation. I'm really referring to you now. Ask your that Joven come scold us luhs, _l_ ' Like we scared siol -.-

Ohoh, especially me [: Cause I know I'm not in th'wrong anyway, you're' [:

- You're the one who forges a girl as your Dajie named "Shinying" whose in 18SYH'.

( What do you think will happen if the real people knows? ) Cause I'm not stupid okay;

She online when you goes offline, & she offline when you goes online.

Both using Windows Messenger siol, very cool eh? [:

* Just a warning, don't flirt till kena pregnant horhs.
There's a new condom name don't-know-what lahs hor.
Go try that, give them business :D

Nah I'm not pissed, I'm in a good mood :D Cause, shan't let those eff-ers spoil my mood right ? Yup, & I'm gonna revise after settling all these craps. [:

Nothing much to blog :/

Bye♥

Fear is temporary, regret is forever.

2007-12-19T20:02:00.000+08:00

Just some randoms -

I've been so up ( opposite of down ) these days :D

Happy happy, happy for me will you ?

Oh anyway, my eyes twitched again, earlier on. `

I think my intuition's so accurate can, Godbro's moving out. Due to some conflicts with mom. So that means, she's in a bad state now, & if he's gone ..

I'd be dead whenever she flares up. Ohmygod >:O !

Happiness doesn't mean that everything is perfect,
it just means that you have decided to look past the imperfections. -
I hadn't collect my altered skirt, not prepared.
& hadn't even started revising. School will be reopened in like 1week D:
- Countdown for 14days :/

Godmom's bro just passed away peacefully.

& The burst-bills came just yesterday ..

When she's back on Saturday, I'll be soso in deepshit -.-

I want to go out .. ? :/

Suppose to revise today, but then don't feel like doing.

But I just don't know why, I feel so nervous about School D:

You know, like I've never been to school before.

Weird -.-

( I'm just bored, So don't blame me for this double post. lol ! )

Colours of the blue sky turning grey, fading away.

2007-12-19T13:46:00.000+08:00

Like woah, my previous post's counted as my longest ever.
Which only talks about one typical day.
Oh-so-cool :D

--
You don't have to bid 'Goodbye'
If you had never said the word ~~'Hello'.~~
~~♥♥♥~~

Played around with codes last night/this morning.
Screwed up my blog, &luckily nobody's viewing. Phew`
Actually wanted red, but its too bloody :/ So out with this light purple.}
Will change if receive bad responses. [:

As for today, didn't have much to talk about. -

Been bloghopping, searching for interesting blogs to read.

Like, so little people updating -.-

Stead ended up in a school named Yuan Ching, which I never heard about.

Well, I hope I also can retake PSLE & choose better school.

Who doesn't ? When the aggregate's soso low >: l

Sighs, I'm off to bloghopping once again -

Bye♥

Distance means so little when someone means so much.

2007-12-18T18:59:00.000+08:00

Dear Diary`

Was up with loads of phone calls waiting for me to pick up.

In the end, my mom just switched in off, 28miss calls D:

Didn't bother to msg/call them back. Lmao, &then after awhile I experienced serious eyes-twitchness. ( Something bad will happen? )

Ignored that sign too :/

Bathed, prepared & onlined for a little of websurfing.

& Not long after stead left her house,

While me pathetically was waiting downstairs for someone to return my mom's money -.-

I thought I'm gonna be late, but in the end didn't :D Stead missed a stop as she couldn't come out of the train, lolol. So she was late by 8mins, wow :/

Camwhored all the way to VivoCity' I wonder if people think we're siaocharbor. [x

( Realised that all the pics we took are reflections, nah thats our style. [: )

Mm hmm' Went to search madly for Macdonald'.

Find here find there also can't find ehs -.-

Then finally saw someone with a Mac' plastic bag with fries inside, went forward to ask.

She said with a hightone : "Harbourfront Mall" ( Notice that the Mall's in bold. )

Ohoh, then went inside Harbourfront Centre to search frantically again; when we saw it stead was like kee-siao -.- ( Think like no food like that ! Lmaoxz! )

After we ordered, mom suddenly called me up.

Scolded me loads of vulgarities & then khup again, she's damn fierce lah :/

(Oh&I cried infront of so many passerbys .. ? N'mind won't die. )

I was afraid I have to ~~runaway~~ again; & I bet my eye twitched because of that. D:

Picture living with that one person for the rest of your life.
Now, picture living without them.
Which one's harder? ♥

After eating, headed to Toyr'us for a walk inside.

Nothing much to elaborate here, went around other shops to see.

After that strolled @ SkyPark ` & I sort of played with the water; I want go there swim [:

Lol, went down & then saw Siew Voon with her stead. Cool xD

She didn't saw me though, then we stalked them & took some 'spy pictures'.

Well if she read my blog, I bet she's gonna kill me -.-

Anyway, had a great laugh while spying. (Lmaoxz!)

♥♥♥

Trained back to Amk [:

While on the train saw 10miss calls from mom'

Cause I till then then checked my phone, was afraid can :/

Then don't dare to go home, tiptoe-d to my room & she saw & I've got to come up with loads of explainations regarding that problem, D:

But in the end managed to coax her back to normal. Well, for the time being I guess. :/

By the way, my phone ~~may be~~ confiscated with effect starting from 21st Dec'

So please don't ever call/sms me from that date onwards,

till further notice, thankyou [:

The only people you need in life are the ones that need you in theirs.

2007-12-17T19:54:00.000+08:00

& Met up with stead @ Lakeside Mrt' ( She was late by 7mins :/ )

Then, she brought Yuening with her ]x I guessed I just couldn't be myself uh.

Felt so weird lol ! But after awhile, back to normal [: After that reached Boon Lay to Jurong Point', went down to Post Office but unfortunately the Queue's darn long.

So decided to go to another Post Office later on' ( Near her house one. )

Lunched @ Kopitiam; Stead treated us Laksa, & Yuening treated us Drinks.

But I didn't treated anything, poor me; because I'm broke :[

Went arcade & wanted to play Daytona, stead's member card was expired after a tap -.-

So I couldn't play, she play her own, (lmao!) So pathetic ;x

Hahahs, --

While she's playing, Chris called & 'pranked' me uh :/

He said he's at Jurong Point, then made three girls go find him @ Comic's Connection,

Gift-A-Name & Yellow Shop, } We went a big-round just to find him ! T.T

All empty one sehs, -.- ( He's actually on the way home lahs, die please. )

Cabbed to the Post Office we suppose to go, & finally posted the Lenny Shifu's present ;D

Cool. 2stamps is more than enough lol !

Okay, feel so free now [:

I've been going out 9 out of 10 times these few weeks.♥
After tomorrow or Wednesday, will have to start revising [:
I'm so guai' right? ~~Yeahs(:~~
--
In a perfect world, who do you choose
The one that you love, or the one that loves you?

After that walked to stead's house. Much bigger than Amk's Houses luh, yup it's a mansion [: Saw her brother, nervous-ness :/

Lol, & the main purpose I go her house's because I've promised to style her hair.

But in the end not even a single idea came up to me, so yeahs nvm' Best is she go a Salon to ask the hairdresser to style :D Played around with her Comp' } & Clothes :O

& Gonna go Vivo tomorrow. ♥

Blind-folded from the past.

2007-12-16T16:57:00.000+08:00

I've just submitted my previous blogskin [:
{ http://www.blogskins.com/info/171534 }
Help me comment/rate/fav if you're free, please?
:D Thankyou very much'♥

& I don't really like my current blogskin right now.
It's like, so weird :/
Nah its temporary, don't worry. [:
I hate the navigations too, like so uh D:
--

Ignore the previous post,
just some minor breakdown(s) last night.
I don't know what to update today either.
Looking forward to the Outings starting from tomorrow. :D
Bye all !

Words left unsaid, deeds left undone.

2007-12-16T00:56:00.000+08:00

I'm crying now. ( Like whatever? )
& I not sure which reason(s) it's for.
I'm really confused. =(

I cry for the time that you were almost mine,
I cry for the memories I've left behind,
I cry for the pain, the lost, the old the new`
I cry for the times I thought I had you.
I cry, although I know its just a waste of time & tears.
But the fcuking emotions just overcome everything,
& I mean everything ..

I'm getting tired, a cure was not meant to be there.
I just need a shoulder to lay on. Just for me.
You taught me things, things like how to hold on,
Things that taught me to grow, things like that.
&that I could tell you I'll always remember these.
But why oh why. Why tell me why. -
When I finally realised that I can't waste time over missing something in the past.
You're gone. --

Tired of trying, sick of crying
Yeah I'm smiling, but inside I'm dying.

Oh, I'm fine.

The moments when we take our breath away.

2007-12-15T17:48:00.000+08:00

Random shot. [:

Slept at 5am & woke up @ 11am; (Stupid neighbours.)

Bused to Bedok, 1hour ride there. Realised I brought the wrong phone -.-

Took some random shots on th'bus. &Blahs -

Times change, people grow, things don't always go our way.
As we walk across this stage, we start a new chapter again.
New memories to be made. --

I'm lazy to update the rest. ;x

Cause am, damn sleepy with this type of weather conditions.

But quite cooling also `(Tho' it'd be better with snow D:)

Okay uh, will be playing with codings tomorrow.

Which means I'm gonna change my blogskin real soon :D

Wheeeeees(:

Lie to me & tell me everything's okay. x[

2007-12-14T18:36:00.000+08:00

I'm exhausted, beat D:
After the funfunfun date out with stead. (Lmaoxz!)
Met up @ City Hall once again, went Raffles City to buy Donuts [:
Bought the same old things, used up 1packet of tissue again.

I love herrrrrr ♥

Hmms, after that trained to Bugis & ..

Spent like more than 1/2hour finding the Pastamania Shop? We go up go down left & right & walked a few rounds still got nothing. Lol ! Then went to Guardian & stead asked a lady there where is it. She told us to walk straight turn right, but in the end still don't have.

Asked another lady @ JeanYip's, she said its in Basement One. We don't believe, then walked & walked saw ' Customer Service ' - Yeah, thats the best ! It is in Basement One. :D

-- Skipskip `

Ordered Creamy Chicken, her's Al Funghi. ( So hard to pronounce. )

She paid for the Pastas & I paid for the 2 IceLemonTea(s).

Mm hmm' Couldn't finish everything. Only ate the Chicken. -.-

So after that, went up to Newbie Shop & Converse; bought nothing. - Headed down to Bugis Street to search for Lenny Shifu's Present. Walked 1round & to this Cartshop which sells Accesories. & then bought something @ ( insert pricetag ).

Gonna find out how to post to him o.o

The tragedy of life is not that it ends so soon,
but that we wait so long to begin it. ♥/}
& I think I have an infatuation towards you. --

Took loads of pictures today, lazy to post up the rest.

& While training back to Amk. Stupid Colin Kor called & ask me to meet him @ Amk Hub -.-

Yeah went, &he only asked :

"What she say?"

"Nothing? She only say she wants to be single o.o"

"Orh okay lor, then where you going now?"

"Home? o.O"

"Okay bye."

Weird guy :/ I walked all the way there & just these few words.

Somemore his so called 'Basketball' friends all damn chio siaks :X

Hahas, okay the end. Bye♥

You'll never come to know th'future.

2007-12-13T20:50:00.000+08:00

Once again, thanks for th'Chocs♥

So excited about tomorrow's outing♥

& Well, it sounds like a date; or perhaps it is a date -.-

Hahah, later same thing one at North one at South again.

Gonna find a gift for Lenny Shifu. [:

( Hopefully can find uh. ' )

Oh by th'way this is a random post. --

Actually I also don't know what to update. Just bored.

Like, so many people had flown off already, &i'm like prisoned in Singapore rotting.

Hmm, what else, let me see ..

Yeah & I'm 90% certain that I'm submitting this blogskin into blogskin.com.

Cause it's been such a long time since I've contributed any :/

Lol & yeah, no more images. ( Supernoob in editting. )

♥♥♥

Blahs, super bored.

Nothing to say already, speechless -.-

Bye readers♥

Changing for the better. [:

2007-12-13T16:58:00.000+08:00

1. How old will you be in five years?
۰ 19 year old, ( I don't wanna grow up lahs T.T )

2. Who did you spend at least two hours with today?
۰ Uh, myself @ home, then online with Stead. [:

3. How much do you weight?
۰ Uh, it's girl's secret. [:

4. What do you look forward to most in the next 2 months?
۰ Going crazy over assignments. :/

5. What's the last movie you watched?
۰ Enchanted. :D

6. Who was the last person you dreaming?
۰ Vampires & Zombies ( It's true -.- )

7. Who was the last person who talked on the phone with you?
۰ On phone with stead right now [:

8. What was the last text message you received?
۰ About some kidnappers related message :X

9. Who was the last person to leave you a voicemail?
۰ I forgotten my voicemail password. :D

10 .Do you prefer to call or text?
۰ Others to call, don't have to waste time/money.

11. What were you doing at 12am last night?
۰ Online web-surfing. [:

13 . When is the last time you saw your mom?
۰ Moments ago.

14. What color are your eyes?
۰ Dark Brown. [x

15. What time did you wake up today?
۰ 2.45pm D:

16. What are you wearing right now?
۰ Purple Tee + Home Shorts.

17. Do you find love or wait for it?
۰ Wait for it, duhh I'm not desperate lol. xD

18. Where is your favorite place to be?
۰ Fairyland, milkyway :D

19. Where is your least favorite place?
۰ Hmm, hell ?

20. Where would you go if you could go anywhere now?
۰ Travel around the world straightaway :D

21. Where do you think you'll be in 10years?
۰ Working/Slacking Places. ( Who knows the future man x[ )

22. Paris Hilton or Nicole Richie?
۰ Can I pick, none of the above? [:

23. What do you fear the most?
۰ I've got truckloads of Phobias, which weighs the same :O

25. Who was the last person to send you a message?
۰ Aloysius Kor, ( & I'm currently lazy to reply. Lol ;X )

26. How big is your house?
۰ Just some ordinary HDB [:

27. Do you sleep with or without clothes on?
۰ With, ( Like duh, -.- )

28. What color are your bedsheets?
۰ Rainbow patterns. What'd ya think?

29. How many pillows do you sleep with?
۰ Six, butbut I only use one & ignore the rest kays (x

30 . What was the last thing you eat?
۰ Stew. With some bloody chicken -.-

31. Are you bored right now?
۰ YesYesYes, hire me some entertainers? xD

32.What do you wish to do?
۰ To be in a Spacecraft & visit Aliens xD

33. College or university?
۰ University. [:

34 . Quiz or Midterm?
۰ None of the above, [:

35. Gold or Silver?
۰ All of the above, [:

36. Does anything hurt on your body right now?
۰ Uh, I guess nothing at all.

37. Opposite-sex that attracts you the most by looks or special qualities?
۰ Well I suppose, both ? ( As long as they're not retarded [: )

38. Listening to any songs now?
۰ My Current Blogsong. [:

39 . How long ago did you kiss someone?
۰ Kissed a baby like, months ago?

40. Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?
۰ Girlfriend ! My stead♥ ( Hahas nah jk, I'm single & happy with it :D )

41. Hugs or kisses?
۰ Hughughugs ! :D

42. Do you smoke a lot?
۰ Eew? I hate smokers alot. x[ !

43. Do you know your blood type?
۰ Yeah I think so. & Its O' [:

44. Do you dance?
۰ Nah, but only if I have to.

45. Have you ever drank alcohol?
۰ Yups, ( Stupid idiot force me drink one -.- )

46. What song is your ringtone?
۰ The Way I Are - Timberlake.

47. Do you hang on the phone for a longtime?
۰ Yeahs, when I'm absent from school. Sheeesh.

48. Do you own a gun?
۰ YesYes ! Watergun, *bangs* !

49. Do you get nervous?
۰ Most of the time, well depends on the Situation, [:

50. Who do you wan the person to do this quiz? List 10 '
- Whoever who saw this & have a blog.
I don't sabo people :D

Peeping through the concealed envelope, I'm the last to know.

2007-12-12T23:23:00.000+08:00

She must be beautiful, the girl he talks about. --

Our life, is filled with regrets as we grow.
For things not done, for words not said.
For love not shown, for dreams not completed.
Moreover & over, just like that.

2nd time' I ran away from home this year.
This time's different, much more funner than the previous.
Nahs & don't scold me for being away, because there's some kind of havoc in my house.
Which is too confidential to mention to you readers uh. Sorry ]x

So yeah, out since 10pm last night ♥
I've brought along uh, emergency items :
Torch, tissues, water, towel, extra clothings, money & ez-link. (No hp.)
Slept @ th'usual playground with those cats, &was woke up in the middle of the night cause some blackies were having sex' keep meowmeow non-stop -.-
Trained to YioChuKang Swimming Complex in the afternoon for a shower.
So cooling, I wanted to swim luh, but don't have any swimmingcostume D:
Walked back to Amk, in order to kill time. [:

--
Bought McSpicy meal at the Mac' opposite library, wanted to eat there but it was packed.
So takeaway & that's my Breakfast cum' Lunch cum' Dinner :D
& I so love the night. ♥
Decided to return back home cause I really misses blogging.
Lol, is misses my bed & i'm hungry, but blogging as well.
Returned; dad didn't asked anything.
Mom asked me why don't I stay out there forever, find a job whatever.
:/ Lucky she not drunk -.-

Okay thats all.
Toodles♥

At the most .. I go.

2007-12-11T18:54:00.000+08:00

Out with stead to Lot1 today.
Nothing much to shop there uh, met up with the boys after that.
Ohoh, &I tapped the wrong person thinking it was stead. (So hilarious!)
& I think they were those cockeyed ones, stand infront of them also can't see -.-
Then, everyone's like so shy. (Lmaoxz!)
Heh, but I'm the one who talked the most :D

Well, the brother is better than him in every ways.
Never thought he's that little bastard, hahah :/
--
After that, us girls & the boys were talking among ourselves.
Then we went arcade without them, & then that bastard messaged :
" Hey sorry, I gtg. Urgent matter." ( Like real horhs. )
But that urgent matter is actually meeting with his lil'brother's friends.
Weird peoples.

So yeah, after they left already.
We don't know what to do, it was so darn bored luh.
Walked around, went down bought Peach Milktea, stead bought Apple Milktea [:
Then went Macdonald, bought Fries & slacked around to wait. Stead called Colin to come, & he spent like uh' 45mins to reach :O
♥♥♥

-- Ohoh, thanks lover/stead for your Chocolates♥

My short term's memory getting serious D:
Weird, can't remember some other parts, but n'mind larh hor.
I only remembered, the skirt that stead wore looks like Mfss'Skirt. Lmao, hahas so cute larh, :D

Trained home with Colin Kor.
He's really a good talker siak, okays then the end.
By th'way, won't be online till I return back from Mia.
2days if I'm not wrong. --
Wish me luck, bye♥

Tell me you've been around.

2007-12-10T20:22:00.000+08:00

Okay am back :D
From Bugis, not Bedok. Will be going there on Sat instead. :/
I'm so xintong can, (heartpain).
She see this see that anyhow buy, might as well give me her money.
Now my pocketmoney's cut off, because of her -.-
& Just because of her, I only bought one tee this time.
Haha, n'mind D:

Oh, saw a few blogskinners though o.o
Those with blogshops one, lmao. [x
--

Searched madly for my dear shoe, but to no avail :/
Dang, then just shopped around.
& I just don't know why larh hor, everytime I stood like quite some time, my back would aches. As in not those normal type of aches, its like those excruciating pain ? (Dotxzxz.)
Then blahs, skips.

Reminder for me :
Meeting stead @ 2pm.
Meeting the rest @ 2.30pm. (Lot1)
Ps/} Short term memory.

- Probably running away soon.
I can't stand this type of life anymore .. Yeah okay, I'm not a responsible person.
Why even let me handle this in the first place? Go settle yourself then, I don't wanna care.

You're somehow too perfect for me. :/

2007-12-09T18:57:00.000+08:00

Bored, boring, boredom caused it.
What causes boredom then?
Yourself. :O
--
Nowhere to go, been rotting at home. :/
Bloghopped around, & so little updates uh -.-
So-not-fun D:
Been revising also, but gave up after the first topic.
Lmao, it's not that difficult really. Just that I'm lazy luh.
Whatever, I want to go out ! D:

Tomorrow: Maybe going out? Bedok, don't play me out again :/
Tuesday: Outing; Stead, Yizheng & the lil' bastard to Lot1.
Friday: Outing; Stead & Regin to Bugis. Uhh .. [x
Tuesday: Outing; Stead &Colin Kor to Vivo o.o
Other days: Totally no idea at all. Gonna rot D:

See, I'm soo free -.-
N'mind, would be going out alone for Photos.
To boost up my photography skills. On other free days [:
Nothing to update lahs, I'm gone once again -

& I don't know whether to trust you or not ..

It's not really fate that decides where we're going.

2007-12-08T20:42:00.000+08:00

Yayness♥

Stead is finally back from the trip to Taiwan [:

Miss(ed) her so much please ! Welcome back♥

&Cheerup, don't let yourself be bothered about such idiots.

Its not worth it, don't let it spoilt your current mood. {-

Just inserted a 'tagboard' last night, was bored.

& Am considerable uh, peoples won't have to comment the troublesome haloscan.

Lol. But I doubt there'd be much tags anyway.

Because, fame don't last.

♥♥♥

Woke up @ 7.45am this morning. (Surprised?)

They said I looked like a Fairprice lady/Waitress wearing my Formal Clothings.

Or rather, Anime Character during some Courseplays -.-

& The hotel's in Chinatown, opposite Apollo Centre [: Furama Hotel. (sp?)

Anyway, the food was so-so. Prefer the desserts more, ♥

I misses the Marshmallow plus Chocolate from Mini - Chocolate Fountain (!)

Okay what's more;

I think I shan't elaborate about this Event larh hor ?

♥ Trained down to Dhouby Ghaut, went to th' Arcade there with some of them.

While the rest went home. Sad x[ Oh, &saw Xueting [:

Played 2rounds of Daytona, 1round of Basketball & well.

Acompanied one of them to eat, camwhored abit. &Trained back to Amk after that.

Hanlun was talking about my platoon, & then I think thats it. We're giving up.

Well, at least I am. [:

Walked around Amk Hub with Atikah after that,

Nothing much. So went back home & here I'm blogging :/

I don't know what happened to me uh,

have realised that my posts are boring than ever despite having a fun day outside.

Weird D:

Do you really mean it ?

Or am I hearing only what you said to others as well .. ?

Out of sight from the other souls.

2007-12-07T18:51:00.000+08:00

(Random post!)

Zone Presentation tomorrow♥
& I'm soso dead D: I would look like uh, I don't know?
I'll be wearing White Collar-tee & a skirt for Smart Casual.
Ohmygod D: (shitxzxz!)
Howhowhow. !
& I don't think I can wake up please, the earliest time I woke up so far is 12pm,
& I slept at around 5am plus last night/morning (?) Ohmygod.
Will be waking up @ 8am tomorrow morning. :/ Oh how oh how.
N'mind relax ..
--

I don't want eat other food.
I only want bread, its been 12345678910years since I ate any dough-made-food.
Uh well, besides doughnuts. But what I want now is just simply a white-bread.
Nothing more. Too sick of eating pasta -.-
Bread ?

LOL! Okay I'm mad. [x
-----

Revised from 1pm till now.
Will read the next book if I got the mood back.
Cause I'm worrying about tomorrow's thingy :/
Damn I'd look so weirdie -.-
Bye♥

You never seems to tell me anything,

is life that complicated to you?

I wonder what you treat me as ..

Wipe my tears away, <3

2007-12-06T22:02:00.000+08:00

I've decided not to go Mia', cause I'll miss my friends [:
Hahas, went M'sia yesterday; bought a White-tee (finally) & slippers.
Mom bought moreee can, but n'mind I'm not the one paying anyway. [x
Skip&skip&skip, aiyah shan't elaborate about the trip.
---

Went Toapayoh Popular alone today, it's so huge lah.
&then bought Stationaries & stuff, searched throughouly for my Assessment books' ;
Gotten Additional Mathematics(Key.Points), Getitright(Comprehension) &N'level Maths.
&As well as some Sudoku Handbook(lmao), kays total cost : $52.05
So effing heavy plus stupid carrying such a big popular bag. :/
But am' so happy that I've gotten my Assessment Books uh.
Yayness :D
After that met up with Godbro, pushed all the heavy things to him. :X
&then ate Thai Cuisine, mom came &shopped @ Centrepoint. [:
Saw CINDERELLA & SNOW WHITE & SLEEPING BEAUTY !
Oh-so-pretty! Godbro keep pull me to take pictures with them -.-
But nah, so paiseh cannnnn lols :/
Oh yeah, bought my shades.
♥♥♥

After that, went Hub' to hunt for my shoes.
I need shoes D: But nah all so simple, am going Bugis soon.
Home after that, --
Am having backache+toothache+coughs D:
Kays bye♥

♥/} Thanks for the memories.

2007-12-04T23:40:00.000+08:00

THANKS LENNY SHIFU♥

For the Keychain & Panda Plushie.

Tho' it takes 2months to come, lol !

Will send something to you on your Birthday.

♥♥♥

& I want to take MC's in life.

I'm going MIA' anyway, just need a break.

Will be back most likely on Sat/Sun.

Bye♥

I wasn't prepared enough.

2007-12-04T11:05:00.000+08:00

Slept 1hour last night.
Too awake to fall asleep. :/

You came & pulled me out of these emotions,

But pushed me back to them & left in the end.

Why bother to come in the first place? ♥

Back to school @ 8.25am.
Security guy don't allow me to go in, cause I was wearing casual clothes -.-
& then my dad went in to buy for me, waited 20mins at the void deck opposite.
Finally got my textbooks :D ( Gotta start revising from now onwards. )
But there's like more than 10 of them can only be bought when school reopens. D:
Oh anyways, bought uniforms too. ( As my old ones are so big -.- )
--

Came across this guy who added me on msn, (from imeem).
Intro here intro there, so fast ask me :
He : "Can stead?"
Me : "Er?"
He : "Tell me more about yourself."
Me : "Nothing much? ._."
He : "Stead can?"
Me : "What for? We don't even know each other well yet -.-"
He : "I've stopped schooling."
Me : "So?"
( While he's still typing, slowly. )
Blocked.* ~~Boy you're retarded.~~

--
From here onwards, don't have to read.
I'm just randomly ranting my heart out. But still, no offence if you choose to read.

& I'm really very tired (to care) ):
Like, can anyone understand? D:
I've sent & wasted about 60smses on this event. &Only like 20+ replied. Any explainations for this? Okay that n'mind, but it appears to me that i'm actually handling two important events @ the same time, leaving my personal stuff behind. & Like nobody's even helping out with this, (Not that I'm asking anyone to, but can you all like, at least co-operate, I understand that you people have busy schedules too, I'm a human too right? That doesn't makes me different from you people.)

-- Sorry no offence mates, just ranting about how I feels here.

& to that idiot right there. ( You'll know who you are. )
Please. I've helped you so much, yet you're like crying to me saying she doesn't likes you anymore, that whatever I do don't help. (Haha should I laugh out loud?)
I don't want to sounds mean, but you force me to. You ask me questions, I answered. &the next thing I know is you ignore my answers/questions & go on with your silly stories about how emo you are. Hey at least emo people don't tell people they're emo -.-
You said you wanted to die, fine I'm way to kind that I've comforted you. But then you keep saying it over & over again, then boy I tell you. Go & die and please, don't ever come back. [: Like what you said, people would live happily without your existance. ( Yeah of course, without you crying to me that you're slashing/banging yourself/whatever when it turns out that you're not. You idiot -.- )

P/s.} I'm seriously in a bad mood, don't talk to me.

Bruised from the past.

2007-12-03T14:01:00.000+08:00

I love my blogsong♥

Yesterday was so a disaster for me;
Fever/Sorethroat/Gastric all come & really felt so terrible can :/
Th' fever had subsided, gastric gone cause it don't stays forever,
Sorethroat had gotten worse. ( I don't dare to eat/drink now. )
Stupid stupid x[ So am now drinking fruitsalt', roflmao tasted so yummy :D

Hmm was fetched by cousin this morning, @9am?
Struggled out of my beautysleep then slept there till 1.30pm.
Ahems* am so pig lol ! So yeah now using his laptop. [:
Nothing to update -.-

Lyrics again (?)
I'm bored.
--
& I know my posts are getting boring & boring each day.
Not much events, even if there is.
My short term memory would erase those interesting ones.
Like the other day :/

Oh yeah, seems like people keep asking me to continue making blogskins (..)
I'm so sorry people, tho' I promised that I'll do it this month a few months ago.
I didn't :/ Cause i've lost my skills in imaging. Lol !
& Simply codings itself won't work.
Kayss ciao♥

Tonight - Fm Static

2007-12-02T13:20:00.000+08:00

I misses NCOC.

Looking forward for the outing :D

Visit http://dynamo-ians.blogspot.com & tag !

Anyone will do [:

I remember the times we spent together

on those drives

We had a million questions

all about our lives

and when we got to New York

everything felt right

I wish you were here with me

tonight

I remember the days we spent together

were not enough

and it used to feel like dreamin'

except we always woke up

Never thought not having you

here now would hurt so much

Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up

I need your loving hands to come and pick me up

And every night I miss you

I can just look up

and know the stars are

holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you tonight

I remember the time you told me about when you were eight

And all those things you said that night that just couldn't wait

I remember the car you were last seen in

and the games we would play

All the times we spilled our coffees

and stayed out way too late

I remember the time you sat and told me about your Jesus

and how not to look back even if no one believes us

When it hurt so bad sometimes

not having you here...

I sing,

"Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up

I need your loving hands to come and pick me up

And every night I miss you

I can just look upand know the stars are

holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you tonight"

I sing,

"Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up

I need your loving hands to come and pick me up

And every night I miss youI can just look up

and know the stars are

holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you tonight"

A little fragile moment.

2007-12-02T12:57:00.000+08:00

Oh-so-random. [x
Spongebob's the first thing that appear in my mind once I'm awake this afternoon. Weird, I've never like it so much -.-
N'mind, silly dreams :/
--

I bet stead's on the way to th' Airport now,
( Please don't forget to buy me chocolates from Taiwan :D ) .
& that tootie also, going what Malacca :/
Somemore I'll be going there when he's coming back.
Really can't judge destiny.
♥♥♥

Gonna buy next year textbooks on Tuesday.
Most of the others have bought long ago, kiasu till everday revision; tuition etc already.
As for me, sighs -.- &I'm posting straightaway from my dreams.
Cause I just woke up, D: Then I'm too bored to do anything else.
Now I'm posting craps, infact every of my post are craps :O

Okay I know.
Lyrics :D
-------

See next post [:

Tonight I've fallen, &I can't get up ..

2007-12-01T19:58:00.000+08:00

I just find all these pics cool uh, & I know you people do too(:

&Finally, we've been through everything that we're suppose to.

Finally managed to end this whole entire course successfully, after everything [:
The Passing Out Parade's funfunfun ! I don't mind the Sun at all x]

First time tossing my beret off my head, but I catched it anyway :D

Ohoh &, I love the food they've prepared for us, simply delicious!

Thanks for the memories♥

Hahas after that bus-ed back home.

So here am I, blogging♥

But it seems like there's totally nothing for me to update :O ?

Oh the Snowcity's outing cancelled; going somewhere else with stead instead. [:

That stupid Chicken Pie's way too lazy to go mans. D:

Changing blogsong soon -

Perhaps I've thought too much,

Or is it true that you're using me?

Whatever reasons, a part of you is still with me.

Stars burn out to be nothing, as they fall.

2007-11-30T12:51:00.000+08:00

{ Credits }

Some random pictures.
For those who never seen these before, they're actually drawings on grounds.
&Of course, you have to be on the correct margin to see the illusion.
--

Danggg, D:
Tuesday say want go Bugis, in the end say busy.
Thursday say lets go Far East, in the end say got visitors.
Today say want go Bugis/Far East then change to Bedok, in the end say tired.
What's wrong with you siak, I don't want to go already lahs -.-
Poor me :/

Let me organise my little schedule for awhile :

1st /12 : Actual Passing Out Parade for our Zone.
2nd & 3rd /12 : Sleepover @ Alfred Cousin house.
5th to 7th /12 : M'sia Trip to don't-know-where :/
8th /12 : Zone Presentation, abit rush to prepare.
12th /12 : Outing with Stead & the 2idiots, Sighs -.-
14th /12 : Snowcity Outing / Jurong Point with Company. [:
--
( What else ? Uh other random shoppings & revision too -.- )

There's still Dynamo Outing which is not confirmed when yet,
& Who knows how many Competition Trainings we'll have after that.
Oh, I got to revise for next year's subjects too.
Great, I really need A'Maths tuition :/
--

Anyway, i'm off to reading.
Would be buying my textbooks next week, then it'll be disaster.
D: Kay sighs, bye.

You're never the one you used to be,
&I simply know you're avoiding me.

There's no point for my return.

2007-11-29T17:46:00.000+08:00

Okays I look(ed) weird.
( Was trying to control my laughter. )
& I can't believe me & lover actually steaded.
Uh, but not as in those les-sy types at least, & nevermind she's still available :D
Oh poor Aloysius, I didn't steal your girl so don't sad/disappointed already. [x
--
I feel so bad, all the guilt came to me last night.
I shouldn't have done all those things I know I shouldn't. So yeahs, all the guilts :/
If you were to choose, would you rather choose :
' Someone who really likes you but you don't. ' Or;
' Someone who you really likes but he don't. ' ?

Depends on how much you love that person. :/
Okay, these aren't related to me,
Just crapping up to someone who knows you're the one I'm talking about.
But in the end after you told me about 'me & him', I've finally understand.
So its hard to choose uh, best is not having any. [:

&& Yeahs, I agree last night's entry picture was really blur.
Kinda pixelliated as its been a long time since I've editted any pictures.
So don't ever ask me for requests anymore, I'm a noob myself now.
Cause there's still some :/
--

♥ Woke up @ 2pm this afternoon (?)
Gosh I'm so pig lol, slept at around 4.30pm last night/early morning.
My mom's really crazy, later say can, later say cannot.
Then tomorrow's gonna acompany her to Bugis&Far East to find her New Year Clothes.
As well as mine too, I don't have any White Tee's D: &She swear that she's gonna make me buy some Coloured tees, as my whole wardrobe's full of Black-ies :O
Whatever, I wanna an outing !
A chalet if possible ! x]

-- Though i'm too tired to organise any,
&Sorry i'm too sick to carry on planning the Dynamo's Outing, someone help me please? ♥

I find my post today weird.
Which I have no idea which part of it is o.o'
Oh&Imissed the donuts too D:

Outing with Amelia&Co.

2007-11-28T19:08:00.000+08:00

Oh gosh I don't know how/where to start :/
Okay chatted along the way to City Hall Mrt Station with Amelia, &then when I reached we said bye to each other on phone.

As she was like @ one end & I were like at the another one?
Yeahs & I was trying to control my laughter, cause too excited [:
After that we were as close as on msn, & then headed down to Raffles City to hunt for th' Donut Factory, bought Double Chocolate while she bought Spicy Cheese.
I eat until very messy uh.

Kays about 20mins later,
Was trying to ask that Aloysius to come to our Control Station, (not knowing that he's at the other one -.- ) &We walked there and saw him.
Alright that time we were like so shy, (ahems)* Keep laughing non-stop x]
Hahahs then Johannes came moments later, the lastest :/
&The Boys were having their own private time & same thing goes to us girls.
Weird.

After that, lunched @ Macdonald.
Thanks Chicken Pie for that Mcflurry, (lmaoxz).
&Someone very sweet :D Wait ! I mean sweet to someone else xD
I'm so jealous ! Hahas nah just kiddin' , try your best to win her heart soon kays, [:
Went Cineleisure to catch the 'Enchanted' Movie, I'll rate it 7.5 out of 10stars.
Thanks to Amelia's 'ahem' (Aloysius) for the treat too, how generous lol.

Thenthen walked down to Far East,

(Anyway I'm not going there tomorrow D: Mom said she'll be busy again. )

& Window-shop around? &KFC to rest and also took that pic' up there.

Ohoh, she met with her mom and we went home after that :/

Thats the end of the Outing, I don't know what to say already.

Missy.blanche signing off ♥

Screams of silence down on the phone.

2007-11-27T16:19:00.000+08:00

Woots :D
Will be meeting Amelia&Co♥ tomorrow.
Oh&you people still owe me so many things!
Amelia owe me a 'repayment' Johannes owe me 'Mcflurry'
& Aloysius owe me some 'Accesories' [:
~~& I owe Amelia a Goodbye Hug -.-~~

--
Hahas so excited about tomorrow's outing♥
Well suppose to acompany Mom to Bugis today.} She wants her skinnies :O
But I sort of 'overslept' & she said forget it & we're heading down to FarEast on Thursday.
& I think after tomorrow I'll be organising T.M.D's Outing.
& Also our Dynamo's Outing, remember to come online @ 8pm this Friday !
Hmm what else, still have to plan outings for old-friends.
I assumed they've forgotten about me, hahas :/

Oh yeah also here to advertise Amelia's Blog.
Opened for her today, http://seasonsof-alphabets.blogspot.com/ [:
( Go tag as passerbys if possible, lmao. )

I'm so bored now.
Have to enjoy tomorrow to its fullest♥
& How am I going to go home? Alone or with th'boys -.-
~~Shit ._.~~

Crush out on the dreams.

2007-11-26T14:37:00.000+08:00

Down to St. John's HeadQuarters for th' Heartsaver CPR Examination Yesterday. I gotten the Assistant of Zone Chief Commisioner as instructor for my practical, Joseph said he's kind enough to give people chance, which is true. But during the practical itself I got so nervous that my whole body's shaking when doing the Compressions. (Lmao, then he asked why am so tensed :/) I failed the 1st attempt, but passed for the 2nd attempt. Phew, thats my luck only uh'♥

As for the theory paper, same case too.
Failed by 1mark as the passing mark's 24/30.
&Passed for the 2nd attempt which is duh, after that hurried out of the HeadQuarters and then rushed home. Cause I have to be home by 5pm & I was 1hour late.
So instead of preparing everything in 1hour+, I finished everything in 15mins.
(Fast & Steady yeahs? :D)

--
HAPPY BIRTHDAY GRANNY♥
Imperial Court Shark's Fin Restaurant @ the Grassroot's Club. --
Only 60people went, 6tables of 10. Someone didn't attend luh :/
Don't really enjoy the dishes uh, cause I was so full that I feel sick by the 3rd dish.
Then they ordered me Lime Juice with Aloe Vera. [:
After that, went to ask my Cousins whether they're offering any tuition for A'Maths.
But to no avail as they too said that its too difficult to teach, okays nevermind. D:
Reached home @ 11:30pm. &Phone till sleep. [:
--

There's this idiot who added me on msn. (here's some extract of the conversation.)
The - is me duh, the doggyod@hotmail.com is that horny bastard.
*** Note that I don't know him D:

(3:57 PM) doggyod@hotmail.: my cock is v.big
(3:58 PM) doggyod@hotmail.: wan see?
(4:01 PM) -: ...
(4:01 PM) doggyod@hotmail.: can la. im sure u will enjoy it.

- After that, really buaytahan him then (..) -

(4:02 PM) -: can lah can lah
(4:02 PM) -: sure very small one right
(4:03 PM) doggyod@hotmail.: very big
(4:03 PM) doggyod@hotmail.: really
(4:04 PM) -: ohh, show lor. u dare u come show(: i invite people to see horhs? xD
(4:04 PM) doggyod@hotmail.: kk
(4:04 PM) doggyod@hotmail.: when?
(4:05 PM) -: Orchard, right outside taka. 8pm
(4:05 PM) doggyod@hotmail.: no no no. we two can already
(4:05 PM) -: nope, u say big right ?
(4:06 PM) doggyod@hotmail.: ya
(4:06 PM) -: since big must haolian to peoples see mah.

- Skip some parts, -

(4:12 PM) doggyod@hotmail.: i juz wan to sex with u. u juz now sae can?
(4:12 PM) -: nahs, i say want see niah, nvr say want sex
(4:13 PM) -: i tell u ahs, u go buy a female dog home & slowly enjoy
(4:13 PM) doggyod@hotmail.: no
(4:13 PM) -: same de, but hor i tell u, if cannot come out not my fault =x
(4:14 PM) doggyod@hotmail.: can show me yr cb?
(4:14 PM) -: hah? u nvr see before? all girls same de leh u know.
u that time also from ur mom's cb come out de right. still want see see see -.-

Internet's really dangerous luh, sigh -.-
&Maybe meeting Amelia on Wednesday, together with the others.
Hope this outing is successful :D Me Amelia Johannes Aloysius [:
Okays bye♥

Ties that bind, ties that break.

2007-11-24T19:33:00.000+08:00

Exhausted. --
Met th'rest right outside Sweetalk @ Amk Hub.
Bus-ed on 135 to Macpherson Secondary, the 2nd time there.
Would be there next year again (?)

Slacked till the POP'Rehearsal starts, practiced about 6times if I'm not wrong.
My precious boots nearly melted under the hothotsun! Skin too :/
Hope it won't rain or shine that bright on the actual day itself.
Which happen to be next Saturday, 1st December♥
The lucky day where we can throw our berets up :D

--
Nothing much really,
Have to go down to HQ for CPR'Heartsaver Examination tomorrow.
Those who never go, your Passing Out Parade Certificate would be torn -
Won't be online I guess, right after that have to rush to my Grandma's Birthday Party'
Which nobody tells me the location yet, diaooo :/
Okays lah bye♥

I wonder if I should belive you,

I wonder if your words are true.

Wild things get let loose in writing.

-- Regrets unraveling`

2007-11-23T17:01:00.000+08:00

Two appointments this afternoon;
Luckily they don't clash with each other, but its still a race against time.
On the way there, saw Edgar & Ronghui?
If I'm not wrong still got others' but Edgar shouted out my name then I turned around, they laughed. (-.-)

Okays n'mind, just surprised.
&Also saw WC Senior on the way back, same spot somemore.
♥♥♥

Suppose to train to China Town, but then Dad said Outram Park also can.
After we tapped our Ez-links @ Outram Park Mrt, can't find any ways to th'clinic :/
(Wrong uhs, told you China Town better -.-) Waste time & money for nothing D:
Skips, &th' specialist told me I don't have to visit him anymore, till I used up the medicines'

--
Uh after that, headed to Health Promotion Board for my Orthodontist Appointment,
Th'Orthodontist- keep asking me to relax, cause I looked pale; as if i was nervous`
She told me that I don't have to put on braces, because it's straight enough.
(Which was a relieve, phew!)
But if possible & if I want, can go for Cosmetic Surgery, as my upper&lower teeth can't seems to match each other. Cost about 7-8k' Best result when I've totally grown. But th' chances of failure are 30%, which may cause (..)
Don't feel like risking my life x[
--

Borrowed 11novels from Amk Library,
have to brush up my language this hols' no matter what.
Parents hadn't been themselves these few months, have been quarrelling from day to night- not like last time, I doubt nothing is wrong uh ..
Whatever, as long as they don't affect me :/
Kays, off to reading♥

Th' memories had glued to one corner♥

2007-11-22T23:40:00.000+08:00

Travelled to Suntec today :D
--
Had lunch @ Delifrance, saw Taylor & was shocked.
Love your hair uhs, so ang-moh :/ &My mom said at night will reflect, (lmao!)
Camwhored with mom @ the Fountain of Wealth, (or whatever it's called.)
Those Austrailian-tourists are so (sighs). 'Cuse me' till so fierce -.-
Bought some stuffs at Carrefour, then shopped around th' tower.
Can't find what I want, so after that train-ed to Somerset. [:

Sha Villa♥
It's in Somerset, took this picture long ago.
But decided to post it up today. [:
--

So yeahs, dinnered at Burger King.
Wanted to buy some donuts from E'Donut, but the lady behind th' counter's so gloomy, see her face till don't want to pick already. Not happy don't work luh, face so black :/
Only would scare customer away.
There goes my doughnuts ]x

Shopped @ Plaza Sing' for 3hours.
Only bought some earstuds& a panda-ish hairband for neice.
Back home, searched the whole wardrobe any dress suitable for this Sunday's Dinner.
Found, &then my whole room's a mess. Spent for like 45mins to pack -.-
Oh, &after that nothing much.
Only now my neighbour upstairs' are damn noisy.
Damn them. 11pm at night still on speakers to th'max -.-
Darn, also know what songs they're listening to luh. Waking th' whole neighbourhood up?
Okays, i think that's all for today. [:

-- to Nicholas N, also known as Bibi Shifu♥
Cheerups okay, hope you visit my blog today.
Cannot die, I've seen worst people than you.
But this is like the 1st time I see you so down?
Kinda surprised. &i believe there's better girl out there right,
to an old ahpek like you :/ Nahs just kiddin'.
Perhaps I'm experiencing th' same feeling as you, but try not to care about other things first, if i'm you i'd be knocking on my brain working out on the business thing.
Okay, I can't say much here.
&I know you're more experienced than me.
So shall leave it all to yourself, takecares. --

♥ I don't know what's the whole full meaning of successful,
but i'm going to find out, the what, the how, the why ..
This world is always unfair, some people suffer while others get away with it (..)

After all these, I'm bidding goodbye♥

2007-11-21T15:17:00.000+08:00

No more pictures♥
--

I'm glad that I've at least done something good before I leave.
Last long with him okays. [: Will definitely ask for repayment once I meet you, beware! x]
&I'll still be blogging. Can't live without it♥
Everything seems so easy in the beginning, but once you got your hand ready on it;
You may not even know where to start ..
♥ She, who lives in a dreamland of fairytales,
have no strength to climb up after she fell in real life.
--

Have not yet bought my 2008's textbooks.
If not I'd have already started revising. Was it a mistake to choose A'Maths?
Perhaps. &I regretted rejecting the job offer(s).
Short of cash. ( Stupidstupid D: )
Outing cancelled since mom's busy :/ Too bad I can't meet them this Friday either.
&Someone said I changed. Infact, two people. Have been wondering, did I ? Nope not really. Just back to my old self, not a new one. To the last year one ..
Hahah, doesn't really matters anymore (..)
Bye♥
--

~~Woke up this morning, walked to the kitchen '~~

~~Something had occured to me that I curled to a corner & found myself crying.~~

~~She saw, & came to ask why. That momentarily saw tears flowing down from her ..~~

~~I'm so sorry .. That so many things have happened all this while, that so many things have changed. & Yet we can't adapt to it, can we ? ...~~

~~I'm going to visit a shrink, soon. --~~

&Look at how heartless you can be -

2007-11-20T19:31:00.000+08:00

I've had enough of your excuses.

The members ranges from two little girl to 35peoples in three days :D

Not very bad already uhs, just need more :/ So join okay!

We want to have some fun after T.M.D.'s popularities increased!

Alright anyway, I think my languages deproved.

Or rather, deproving throughout this holiday yeah? I'm gonna brush it all up [:

Back to school today, guess the NPCC's & Modern Dancers having their Camp?

Cool :O `Saw some classmates, they've changed a-lot ._.

While me, only 1% of me changed? Which is I don't know where x[ (N'mind.)

Feel like goin' suntan again, then my brown coloured hair would be much more obvious.

:D I don't know what to update lahs :X

`AMELIA LOVER :
Goodluck on Friday, wished that I could go :/
Sad thing is my appointment's 3pm till (?pm) , so good luck
x]&thanks for the baby photo, will post up tomorrow♥

Editted.

People eventually step into our life & possibly leave one day.

Nothing's there forever, no eternity, only longevity.

But as time fly pass, everything would be gone, isn't it?

When you found a new friend, (sometimes)' You'd be very close to him/her in the first place, but soon enough, from Lovers to Friends, Friends to Strangers.

Okay, I would say most of the time.

Thus how I hope I can cherish every single hour, minute & second to people around me. Treasuring the time which is passing by, is it possible? :/

As memories gradually wither like a dryleaf, won't return. By that time will friends still remember that this world once had my presence? Well (..)

Look, in a year's time, I'd hopefully become an NCO.

Look, in 2years time, I'd be taking my N'lvl.

Look, in 3years time, I'd be taking my O'lvl.

Look, in 4years time perhaps I'd be migrating overseas. (Hopefully?)

Look, in 5years time I would be entering a University in nowhere,

& In x years time, how I wish I can really do setup my own business.

Oh& see, I'd probably be dead in x+y years time then.

I really can't believe it, how time has overtook us, since I was born.

So fast & silently, so many things have changed.

I don't want to grow up, don't want to grow old ..

(Who doesn't? Well, some people perhaps.)

Sometimes I believed I think too far,

but no harm thinking about th'future right? :]

oh how ..

The doomsday conspiracy.

2007-11-19T18:29:00.000+08:00

I've always been myself all along.

So odd, how unusual.

-----

Grandma fell last night, stupid nephews didn't kept their toys back.

Went SGH to visit her this morning, a relief to hear that she's fine, if not I'll make sure those kids die :/ As this Sunday's her Birthday @ one of the Restaurant in town, don't wanna anything to happen to her before her 90year old Birthday Celebration.

Oh yeah I cutted my hair after that;

My fringe's short from th' chin to the tip of the nose now.

So fugly luhs, but overall still okayyy barhs. :]

Appointments'
.20th Nov : Meetup before Recruitment Drive Poster Competition.
.21st Nov : Out with mom, visitors coming too.
.22nd Nov : Not booked yet, probably planning for the Celebration.
.23rd Nov : Orthodontist Appointment, short meetup for RDPC.
.24th Nov : POP Rehearsal, dynamo-ians outing?
.25th Nov : CPR Examination, Grandma's Birthday Celebration.

To-do-list'
.Return $60.50 to Parents.
.Collect $14.10 from Sean.
.Buy 2008's textbooks&uniforms.
.Make new blogskins, myself&site.
.Another runaway(s).
.Still got some, shorttermmemorylost-.-
--

Okays, I think thats all for today ..

Oh still got, hold on-

♥♥♥

Hmms interested to join T.M.D. Organisation ? ( Tamade The Mad deceivers. )

No harm joining in the fun right? Just wanted more members to join in yeah :]

Add T.M.D. to your nick or

Join @ http://www.friendster.com/group/tabmain.php?gid=1050273

Join or forward it please, thanks a million :D

Someone's got to sacrifice -

2007-11-18T13:40:00.000+08:00

Having a fairytale dream in mind,

Didn't take much pictures there.

Mom says better not take out my phone, if not will be snatched by bad guys D:

Slept overnight @ my godbro's friend house.

His brother is so horny. (Ahems, -.-)

-----

Shopped and watched the movie 'Beowolf' or whatever there,

Scared till I squeezed my godbro's thigh :/ (Lmaoxz, so funny that he nearly fell.)

Bought a t-shirt, nail polishs, some accesories & clips at only SG$20.

But I ate alot there (Shhhh:X)

-----

Traffic jamed for 1/2hour while coming back, slept throughout the journey.

Came home packed up stuff etc.

&then quitted the old group & opened a new one,

As shown on my profile luh :]

I told myself today was going to be the day,
No more excuses, cause i knew exactly what to say.
Was gonna make my play, but just like yesterday,
My mind erased, and I let the moment slip away.
- Crushed.

♥ I want to make a new blogskin, feel like playing with the codings again.

But I've got totally no inspirations left can. Feel like changing blogsong too;

or just, close my blog down temporarily.

Hmms (..)

Missing is a kind of illness.

2007-11-15T20:43:00.000+08:00

How typical love is actually is.

I ♥ DYNAMO !

Platoon Four 2007's so incredible♥

Love everyone of you so much, lols there's an outing today.

But sadly no boys turned up.

Benedict don't want to go as no other boys going with him.

Joshua claims that he got some SJI Meeting.

Uh well, the others can't make it :/

In Alphabetical order :

Christina, Huimin, Liew Siew, Meiting, Nadia, Noratikah, Wanting & Yanling(me) !

Turned up for the outing, oh yeah plus Platoon Sergeant Nisa :D

So add up to 9peoples, uhems* kinda pathetic though.

Just hope that most, or rather ALL will make it for the next outing.

Which I don't know when, but I think I'll still be the one planning it. (Lmaoxzxz.)

Hmms.

Yeah, HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO PS NISA♥

(We celebrated her birthday today though')

As for today morning right.
Reached HQ 1hour early, uh huhs, &then I freak-ed out in the cubicle.
Because then I realised I forgot to bring my Shoulder Flash; Without that, I'm unable to wear the Full Brigade Uniform, without the Full Brigade Uniform, I can't take the Exam.After that, have a 'nice-talk' with Sharizan Sir & told him I'll be late as I'll be borrowing Shoulder Flashers from the AL's and will be changing late too. Was fidgeting here & there. (LOL!)My heart almost popped up when the Exam's gonna start lah, cause I'm the only one wearing different clothes. &then Charmaine got my Shoulder Flashers from Jiamin.1min to change, & woohoo I'm safe :D
-- We went all the way there, just for a 15mins'10MCQ Questions,
(very cool eh?)
After that, refer to above.

♥♥♥

I'll be going to Johor tomorrow & be back on Saturday.

I want comments yeah :D

Kinda busy these days, but will tag loads of people when I'm free again :]

Okay, I'm going to reborne my hair now (.. So late already -.-)

So byeeeee♥

Risking th'significance for th'next blossom.

2007-11-14T13:22:00.000+08:00

Step over the flame of fire.

That's the playground I slept that night.

Oh that peaceful night :/

Sms-ed about 8 people regarding of the outing on Thursday.

To my disappointment only Meiting, Nadiah, Noratikah replied.

Meiting replied that Christina & herself don't mind about that Outing.

Nadiah, only asked what time & no more reply D:

Noratikah, maybe :/

What the ahemahem*

Asked the others on msn as they didn't reply;

Liew Siew, rougly can.

Gladys, can't make it.

Benedict, can is can, but don't know whether want or not -.-

Joshua, sms-ed about 2times & no reply. (Coughs!)

Wanting, also no reply. (Giddy~)

Denise, Kenneth, Charan - Don't have their contacts. (Omg!~)

In the end, (Faints!~)

So not co-operative Dx

Wasted so many msges, burst already.

& I sound so retarded asking around.

Sian-ed 1/2.

Nothing to update either.

Bye loves♥

Looking forward to the promising tomorrows.

2007-11-13T16:37:00.000+08:00

Never give in to sorrows.

私があるたわごとすべてが公正私はするべきでないことを私が知っているであること私に私に、それ公正な心配その位気づくようでない。

私達は最後程にもう近くない。

It seems like you've been using me.

-- ♥

The side the side the side,
the side the front the back,
the side the front the side the back,
the side the front the back.
Bian bian bian,
bian qian hou,
bian qian bian hou,
bian qian hou.
Keri keri keri,
keri kenan blagan,
keri dapan kenan blagan,
keri kenan blagan.
La la la,
la la la la la la la,
la la la la la la,
la la la la la la la la.

Gosh, I miss camp so much can D:

Or rather, I miss my Platoon mates more !

Now that Camp's over, we're left with the Examinations on Thursday :]

But if we failed .. we'll not just not get back our $30 back, there's also a possibility of re-camping in the BLTC' level next year, instead of going to the ALTC side.

I don't want to, & I've got no printer to print out the notes.

Asking people to help is a waste of time for both parties, so I'm revising it on Powerpoint '

Uh, please let me pass man :/

Other Platoon's going for outings after the Paper, while my Platoon's so not bonded D:

Sad. I suppose that the guys are uh .. shy? Maybe ..

I want an outing please ! ( T.T )

Okay, I'll be asking them ..

Since Thursday's the last day we'll be see-ing them (..)

Slept from 9.45pm last night til 11:45pm this morning.

14hours :X

Forgive me for those sins I've done.

2007-11-12T19:25:00.000+08:00

A dozens, a hundreds of sorries, I guess.

Long time since I last blogged.

&I'm back in just 5days, cause someone's not going to be gone anymore.

Which is good :D But I'm not very-used to it now. (Lmaoxzxz)

Hmm well, let me summarise what had happened during the past few days alright.

Deepavali, not a very good for me indeed.

Infact, a badbad-day D:

Dear (...) :
Please forgive me for whichever sins I have done.
Please forgive me for not being disciplined enough.
Please forgive me for being so naive&curious about such things.
Please forgive me for making you losing your trust on me.
Sorry, for creating such chaos, I'm just losing myself.
Sorry, I hereby promise you I'd never do it again.

~~I've never knew things would go this far.~~

Everything I have done, would be kept as history.

But its just a permanent bookmark that can never be removed.

All I could ever do is to turn to that page, & learn from my mistakes.

I'll be turning over a new leaf.

♥♥♥

Friday, gotten back our streaming results first thing in the morning.

I guess the Sjab-ians are the first to receive it back, because we got to rush to camp asap.

Yup, so I was streamed into ..

*Drum rolls please ! *

3Formidable :D

Yeah, but I kinda prefer 3Gallant because, most of the people I'm close to are there.

Hahah, actually it doesn't really matters. Just pray that everything goes on exactly well.

By the way I'll be doing :

Additional Mathematics & History.

Physics & Chemistry. Sian-ed.

No Literature, am happy that I got all the subjects I chosen :D

However, still not really sure whether I made the correct choice. Sighs-

&As for A'Maths, the textbook's not listed in the booklist (..) Better don't scare me uh, I don't want to do with the Express, i'd be so dead man :/ (Cannot be one' but just incase ..)

♥♥♥

Non-Commisioner Officer Course' ♥

In the first place, I actually thought that the Camp would be tough & tiring, & that I can't even survive by the 3rd day. But frankly speaking, it's not even 50% of what I thought it'd be, its actually the other way round. So hahah, enjoyed it very much♥ Though I doubt that anyone would have enough rest or hygience, oh who cares man xD

♥ The first day was okay luh, unpacked our stuff for the Platoon Sergeants to check, & then hurried to our Bunks to settle down, the bunks according to Nadia was described as a 2Storey Bungalow ? Uhh well .. Learnt Practical TOC (Transportation of Casualty) too :D Whereby we form a group of 4 to carry the canteen benches up & down the hill.

& then as for dinner right; its field cooking' We learnt how to prepare Orange/Onion Egg, dig the juices or shells out to make a hole then beat an egg in, lmao. We cooked that for the AL's while the AL's gave us some bland Macoroni & Can food in return :]

Bathed @ around 8:55pm I suppose.

Just so you know, I couldn't adapt to the environment there and it was so cold that I woke up in the middle of the night finding my hand frozen there. Not numb, is frozen.

It's cold & wet, no ice lahs. (Superdupercoldnight!)

♥ Second day of Camp, nothing much. The food's not as supreme as the one we eaten on the first day anyway. Platoon Four (Dynamo) don't interact with each other well one luh, mostly is talk among ourselves :/ But in the end the whole Platoons ended up playing 'Billibanja' x] Funfunfun!Uh & then was cooking forward to the Campfire the next day :D

♥ Third day of Camp. Outstanding :X

Hahas well. Had breakfast & some morning warm-ups. & then get ready to hike from the Campsite (Dairy Farm) to Bukit Timah Nature Reservoir and then back again. Which is I suppose 15km ? If I'm not wrong. With two of the 1.5litre water bottles and ponchos etc. So tiring can ! I was suree I'd faint halfway, in the end I didn't. (Phew)

Mine & Liew Siew's shoes become the lastest trend in fashion, lmao.

Both left shoe soaked in mud which is Brown, right shoe not dirtied which is not white :] Dinner, and prepared for our Campfire Skit.

I was the washing machine -.- N'mind lol, Dynamo rocks can :D

Dynamo Cheer:
As we pour to the left, as we bleach to the right.
As we pour as we bleach, as we wash all night.
Dynamo Detergent, is the best indeed,
Dynamo Detergent, is a guranteed.

♥ Fourth Day of NCOC' Also known as the last day. Everybody was yayyying?

They're happy lah, finally can get a chance to return home for a nice comfortable rest x]

I slept for 3-4mins while standing up in the Squat during the dismissal parade ..

When I woke up I found myself nearly banging onto Joshua, (heng ahxzxz)

& Skipskip, here am I back from Mia-ing & blogging right now.

Boredboredbored.

Mom's gonna help me reborne my hair.

Cool :/ But I wanna dye my hair instead leh ._.

Shall end here, sian-ed. Okay byeeeeeee♥

(long entry right? :})

i miss the monkeys from the campsite!

esp th' baby ones x3

Hello, Goodbye♥

2007-11-06T21:11:00.000+08:00

MIA-ING./♥}

I'll go online until fate wants me to.
Since I'm keeping my words to be gone.
So shall I.
If I ever break my promise,
then I'm not Yanling :]
--

Bye Everyone♥
Though I don't know who exactly is reading or has been reading my blog,
You people has still contributed to my life.
But well, no point visiting my blog.
It'll be dead -- Cause I'm not going to come online.
& I don't know for how long.
A month? A year? A decade? A forever?
♥♥♥

Dancing tongue of flames within.

2007-11-05T17:10:00.000+08:00

Learn to trust the little voice inside you.

Once again, had cm this afternoon from 12:30pm-3pm.

I was late, for 30mins. Rushed to the corridor outside St.John's room, & Atikah was counting the attendance, I wasn't sure whether the seniors were looking from the window. Told her to pause and hurridly ran behind the Squat. Lmao, then I became the Attendance IC instead of Atikah -.- So funny can, but I didn't laugh much today. Weird :/

Was having this odd feeling inside me, not sure what is it.

But I do admit I've been thinking alot lately. Well ..

Oh by the way, my footdrills sucks :]

Ps./} TGCY have no mouth to talk, he'd only talk when his 'boy-friend' retrieve it back.

♥♥♥

After that, nothing much already.

Oh yeah` Amelia, see a doctor soon :D

That's all. Byeeeeee ♥

Everything's soso not-fine.

~~I don't know what the fcuk had happened to me.~~

~~I've been like, not-so-myself these days?~~

~~I no longer take it anymore.~~

~~I no longer feel safe either.~~

~~I no longer could control my emotions.~~

~~I no longer could do whatever I feel I should --~~

~~Oh &, I'm no longer someone that's worth to care about.~~

~~Without any particular reasons '--♥~~

& It's flowing neverendingly ..

2007-11-04T19:32:00.000+08:00

All you have to do, is to lead a happy life.

Imperfection/♥}

Whatever you expect from others, you must first expect from yourself.

Family outing, to celebrate my mom's postponed birthday celebration.

Also known as 'pok-kai-day' ( I'm broke ) -.-

♥♥♥

Shopped around Bugis Street & then bought myself a vest and mom her clothes, $45 D:

That n'mind. Trained to Somerset and went to find Godmom for a Job Interview.

But I realised that the restaurant was kinda far from the Mrt, have to walk quite a long distance to reach, so decided not to take the job. $7.50/hour :/

Hahah after that brought parents to one of th'restaurant nearby, I forgot the name lah :/

Then I only ate the desserts, uh Iced Strawberry & Aloe Vera.

Left them alone, maybe its a good time to let them have their private time. ( Yeah, as well as leaving asap to have my own free time too. ) Handed $150 over and left.

Stupidstupid. I don't want to bring wallet already D:

Total Expenditure : (...)

Ahh screww that, Dx

Oh, there's cm tomorrow, again. :/

Wanted to have a rest at home one, because my eyebag's so fugly obvious larh. &I don't want any phone conference after 2pm, too tired luh paisehs :X

What a boring hols' I want to sleeeeeeep D:

Night ♥

& I want to dye my hair white, after reborning.

Some lessons are best learnt through pains.

2007-11-03T18:46:00.000+08:00

Dreams are private myths.

Back :D

http://www.jokesduniya.com/wp-content/uploads/2007/04/lab.swf

One awesome game that Ric introduced to me, try it :]

Metup with Liew Siew & Nadia @ Amk Mrt Station ♥

Guess what ? There's this Couple quarrelling at the station; the guy slapped the woman and then the woman shouted at him & etc. &people just crowded around them for freeshow, lmao not paiseh one meh, want fight also can fight at some not-so-many-people place :/ Oh and we waited and waited till like 2:40pm. Supposed to reach there by 2:30pm. Yeah so we waited 10mins luhh, unfortunately only 6turned up. (including me) D:

& It's like so pathetic, cause the whole of Platoon 4's total strength is 26.

After that, headed to Amk Library, found one place to hide from the staffs, cause we' were supposed to paint, but in the end didn't. One of th' boys drew Glady's idea of the flag on the cloth, or whatever you call that :/

Ate @ KFC cause the two other girls are hungry, Shrooms Burger luh.

I'm the 2nd one to order and 1st to finish :X While the 1st one to order finished the last.

Lmaoxzxz. ( & Wait a min, I think I saw Sabir (?) lololol so reddy ._. )

After the 3bangbang girl's lunch, sort of 'rushed' back to the library.

Yup and then the Yishun Towners came, practiced the campfire songs and so on.

I want 'Purple Light in the Valley' ! Too bad it's not in the list. Sob Dx

The 2nd meeting would be on Thursday 11am at Amk Library once again, I can't make it due to one 'party' at relative house. Hahah sad.

By the way our Platoon's name is finally decided.} Dynamo ! ( Finefine its lamexzxz luh, the brand for laundry thingy :O, I wonder why they prefer this more to donut -.- )

Think I'm gonna pack my camping stuff a moment later.

& I rather think this is kinda a long post. Lol.

Okay bye readers/strangers/everyone ♥

Essence of th' healing power.

2007-11-03T10:30:00.000+08:00

Cling to the past, as well as getting on with th'future.

A deformed heartshape's still a heartshape ♥

Been Facebooking these days, so fun can ! Well it's xtimes better than Friendster can already. So many actions to do :D Hahahs go try go try :]

See I'm so good right, promoting Facebook ! Kiddin' lol.

But Friendster's also okay luh, only not as popular as last time. Yup :/

Phoned with Johannes & Amelia last night, slept @ around 5am (?)

& Was 'disturbed' by Someone this morning at 9:50am :X Jkjk x]

Now charging phone, so bored.

How I hope I could sneak back to the past to retake Psle.} Regretted slacking and lazing around in the park after school :/ Well. If only .. If only its possible. But just some lame dreams luh.I wanna be a boy :/

Uh, feel like changing blogskin again :]

My blog's been so Image-less for quite a long time, I mean my skin lahs.

Not my entries, (duh). Well any ideas (?)

But I seems to forgot how to blend it to the background already D:

Sad sad. My stats turning me back to noob again. Practice makes perfect, &I didn't practice only leads to imperfection :/ Sighsighsigh-

Will update on the Meetup event later ♥

All fired up by shared memories.

2007-11-02T12:12:00.000+08:00

The thought of happiness brings only frowns.

Happy Birthday Mom ♥

Suppose the celebration should be today, however she postponed it to Sunday.

& Knowing that I prepared everything from the start, places, money etc -.- Hahah, n'mind. All I know is I'm going broke by next week. Yup :/

Hmm let's see my schedules`
.Saturday, Meetup with Platoonmates @ Amk Mrt, 2.30pm.
.Sunday, Family outing and celebrate mom's birthday @ random places.
.Monday, Corp Meeting in School. :/ { handup the listofdates thingie./}
.Tuesday, Packing of Camp stuff and etc.
.Wednesday, Outing with Howard & co. I guess :]
.Thursday, Be mentally prepared for Friday's Streaming Results & Camp.

Well that's about it, so no life one uh :/

Feel like taking up French or Photography, but it's like so weird.

Okay learning French's not weird. Photography .. It'd be nice if you don't mind how others look at you when you take a camera out there & shootshootshoot focus.

Not handphone cameras.

Uh, thinkthinkthink*! What to take up this hols (?!)

I rejected all the offers of jobs given. Mentally unprepared as I said.

Now I guess I'll be rotting like some old smelly boots out there -.-

Roarrrrrr. :O

I've always used to being an only child.

I used to have siblings when I was young, ( if you get what I mean. ) Well, now I feel that I want to have them back, feel so alone can D: At least those with elder siblings would know what to do for their future, & those who have younger ones would feel responsible to lead on. Thats all I know, I guess (?) Isolated -

~~I don't think I have the mentality to move on.~~

Lol. Okay would probably blog again lateron.-

♥♥♥

Dreams will get you nowhere.

2007-11-01T21:24:00.000+08:00

Living in it, only brings impossibilities of future conquests.

( It'd be a random entry. )

I'm just bored okay? So am currently blogging again :/

Lets see, I knew that 'Blanche' is White in French, & I've just learnt that 'Noir' is Black and 'Grissoner' in Grey. Shiro is White & Kuro is Black in Jap :]

Oh-so-random sentences :O

Stupid Eshley, know far too many things already x[

So you better shush, if not you'll get it from me the next time I see you. (&I mean it dude.)

Anyway, have been blocking this 'annoying' junior for about weeks (?) Time to unblock him, since my mood's getting better. At least your footdrill's better than mine :]

Hahah, you could see I'm jumping from topic to another topic -.-

N'mind. -----

I'm wondering on how would we be able to opt for our streaming stuff when we're gone for NCOC. Our future careers will determines on the subjects we take luh :/ Prays! *

Have to help Chongmin check her results too, if time concerns :[

Requested her to buy me Adobe Photoshop CS3 and some accesories before she fly off.

Oh she'll be flying off tomorrow. Good luck on your trip then :D

Am too excited on getting Photoshop can, maybe trying out Photobatch x]

Yup ♥

I don't know what to updateee.

But don't feel like clicking on the "Publish Post" button yet (..)

Hmfph! Feel like learning French ._.

Hahah, Ciaoooo ♥

Th' purpose of life is a life of purpose.

2007-11-01T16:53:00.000+08:00

A series of collisions with th' future.

Ohwells, I admit that my blog's kinda laggy D:

Refreshed like 7-8times to view (?) Crap, n'mind I've got patience :/

Johannes intro-ed me some job @ Thomson Plaza as an Operator, $4.50/hour minus off my bus fares of $1.80 isn't worth uh, nightshift somemore :[

Lol, forget it` Cause I'm neither physically nor mentally prepared to apply for any jobs (..)

--- ♥

Chatted with Chicken Pie till 3am last night (this morning). & then woke up @ 10am.

Slacked & etc ` Left home at around 12pm (?)

Didn't catch for the early buses & finally one bus came uh, stupid bus driver.} I dropped a 50cent coin in the box, then he ask me go over & tap my ez-link. (I was like, huh?) I didn't tapped it in the first place because its left around 30cents, (I guess ?) Yeah and I told him the reasons etc he diao me & say just tap, okay I tapped.Then like wtf ? I've already dropped the 50cents in and I still have to tap -.- Ohcrap, my 95cents D: Stupid retarded bus driver, hope you get bash up by people next time ..

Pissed off Dx

Was late for 11mins for CM x[

Hahah then did some CPR stuff, I 'murdered' my casualty xD

Yeah I'm such a bad first-aider, don't come find me :]

Followed by footdrills, was so blurrr today luhs, so many mistakes :/

Aww, most of the Samura(s) my fault, lol sorrysorrysorry! :O

Well, thats most of it`

I need to brush up on my timing though ..

( Shall not mention anything that happens after this. )

I only know that, its impossible x]

Alrighttttttt, that's all.

Lazy to blog, but loveeee it still ♥

Early nights readers ♥

Beneath a laughing face.

2007-10-31T12:58:00.000+08:00

Uponth-tranquility.blogspot.com -- ♥

Halloween's here :D

Storm in the Halloween Morning, spooky isn't it (?)

Changed url. Now my passion for blogging is back♥

Hmm, right now at Cousins house, their room's messier than mine D:

Nearly trip over their school dirts, hah dumb :/

http://spca.org.sg, I wanna join as volunteer!

Too bad I'm below 16, haven't even got my IC :/ Rahrahrah.

There's a few cuties in the Adoption Gallery though, go see go see !

They've made my day uh, got this super funny kitten roflmao xD

Hahah, time flies pass so swiftly (..)

Can't imagine that one year just passed off like that.

That I'm already Sec3, anxiously waiting for so-many upcoming things.

Good or bad, will be gone in blink of eye --

( Hoping that I won't regret in th' Subjects I choose, as it eventually determine my future ahead. )

Platoon Four' would be meeting up this Saturday @ Amk Mrt Station.

Well for some Flag Decorating thingie (You know ..) ; But dot-dash-dotxzxz, I don't know what to bring luhs, & so many of us can't make it, sadsadsad Dx

I don't even know whose going either, hmm me & Nadia and (..)

♥♥♥